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Another Summer Season

In the past, our summers still consisted of a pretty defined schedule, because while my husband and I are both working, we had to bring our kiddos to babysitters (usually family) but with drop offs and pickups, we had to have a schedule; which I am sure many of you can relate too! And my kids HATED it! However, with me working from home, this summer, we had a little bit more flexibility, , which was VERY helpful, it was honestly quite great!!Β 

However, I STILL had to work and that was something the kids had to get used too; that even though I am home, I’m home working.Β 

But being a WAH (work at home) mom, we still didn’t have family vacation all summer πŸ˜•Which is tough because majority of my female family and friends do not work, so they can plan all kinds of fun things and vacations… (mommy guilt = βœ…check ) but we make the most of what we have, looking at the blessings and enjoying the time I do have off πŸ‘πŸ»

Below are a few fun times our family had this summerπŸ•πŸ–πŸš²β˜€οΈ

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Holidays-Missing Loved Ones

I have always loved Holidays! A day off of work to spend with family, is how we always spent our holidays! Usually eating, talking and laughing… a lot 🀭 😊🀣and just being together! I really gave a great family that we love to spend time with!

But since my dad passed away, I kind of dread a Holiday. Yes, I think of my dad everyday, talk to him everyday and a lot of times cry! But Holidays, is just a huge reminder that we have this piece missing. My mom comes and leaves alone, I’m not thinking about what food to make sure and have for dad, or what he’d like to drink… and the list goes on and on of the thoughts that run through my mind. And I just miss him more on days like today! Oh and Thanksgiving and Christmas, can I just skip this year?! And maybe next?! Please πŸ˜“

I know, I know , I can’t skip! That’s not fair to my kiddos and that is for sure, NOT what God wants of me! I always ask God for the strength and grace to get through this season because I need all the help I can get. But come on, it is Tough!

And I hear from many that it gets easier as time goes by but I have felt as the days and months go on without my dad, it’s been getting harder and harder! maybe more realization that he is not coming back? Not sure. But I miss him! I just miss him. 😞

And then here comes my positive outlook and my hope; that I do truly believe That Gods got this! He is something that I can always count on to be there and I am blessed to have a Heavenly Father like that! But I’ll be honest, it’s hard some times to believe that! and I think that’s okay, because we all go through rough patches and maybe what WE want isn’t Gods plan. God has a plan and reasoning that my father passed away and yes, I am suffering through this grief. But man, look at Jesus and what he endured, but he still trusted his father and dying for you and me on the cross, was the ultimate sacrifice! But he trusted his Father and that is how I know God will take of us and I CAN make it through this!

Gods got this!! ( and that is what my earthly father always taught me as well!)

Miss you dad πŸ–€

(Many ask why I use a black heart all the time, in reference, to my dad – and Black is the color for melanoma cancer awareness, that my dad passed away from)

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Visiting…

This week my family and I spent the week with my mom at her place in Florida. My dad and her bought it October 2016 and December 2016 he was diagnosed with Melanoma…and they never went back.

They spent one month down their together and this was my moms first time back. They had worked so hard, finally retired and was finally able to buy a place in Florida! They were so excited and had so many plans…but they were their plans…not Gods plans.

While down their we continued to ask “why God? Why couldn’t have dad had more time down here?” When he talked about retirement, all he would talk about was Florida. 😒

There are so many times in our lives that we ask “why God?” And does God ever answer us? The good news- He does! he answers us! God has a reason for EVERYTHING! We have to trust him! Trust that He has a reason for even the smallest detail!

Even though I do not know why God took my dad, I will continue to trust Him! It’s hard! It. Is. Hard. πŸ’”

I would have LOVED to see my dad in his Florida place, but I didn’t and it will be okay. I had tears, my mom had many tears, but our family was their for her and I am so glad I was able to go with her and support her in this.

The thing that keeps me going is believing that someday I will see my dad again in Heaven. And he was a blessing to me while he was here on earth. But this is not our home, not our eternal home, that will be with God.

There is even a blessing in this…

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“Love is all you need”

BelowΒ is a picture ofΒ  my hubby and I πŸ’•

And wow, Love is all I needed the last year and this guy has been so supportive and loving, I don’t think I could have gone through it without him! From my dad’s cancer diagnosis on 12/27/17 and to his passing a few weeks ago andΒ to the rollercoaster of a ride we have been with our daughter who was diagnosed with severe anxiety, this year has been ROUGH! But the Lord knew I needed this man and I am beyond thankful…I should probably tell him this too πŸ˜‰

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When You’re supported by family, friends, coworkers, or whoever; the burden just seems a little lighter. And I think God puts those people in our lives just for that reason! So be thankful for your support and make sure you tell them! πŸ‘πŸ»

I am beyond blessed for this man πŸ’•

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Back and Forth

I continue to struggle with what’s going on in my life, with my daughters anxiety skyrocketing and fathers cancer slowly taking over his body- I go back and forth about what to feel worse about; my daughters mental health breakdown or fathers future?! πŸ˜₯

I try and think “find something positive” I always find the blessing and feel Satan getting his way with me and winning because I’m sad and just can’t find the blessing right now… but then I read this verse tonight (trying to do devotions on a more regular basis ) while reading the Bible and thought Gods got this! πŸ‘ŠπŸ»

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still” Exodus 14:14

Even if it’s just for the moment, I will be positive, I will eventually find the blessing…maybe not today, tomorrow or next week but I Will! Because God’s got this!!

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I love Fridays…maybe alone time?!Β 

It is Friday and the weekend is almost here! It has been a long week at my house, my little peeps and big hubby peep not feeling so well, so this mama has not had much sleep 😴 So when I was asked to go to dinner for a work function, I thought the alone time would be nice, even just an hour, heck even 5 minutes πŸ˜‰ 

I know I will miss my fam, but this mom needs a reboot! I hope everyone else has a wonderful weekend and has a minute to relax!